After work on July 18th, 2017, I had to bring milk to Camp Beno for Girl’s church camp and pick my meme up. We both wanted to stay for that night’s service, so we sat around talking waiting for church to start.
Well, we got ready for church and sat down so the girls could get ready for the choir and skits. Both skits were amazing. When all that was over with, it was time for Mrs Tera to start preaching.
She preached an amazing sermon. She talked about how no one was a mistake. Everybody was worthy. Well, it kinda touched me because I had been down lately thinking…
“My dad don’t want me. ”
“Was I a mistake to him?”
“Does he wanna know who I’ve become?”
I was crying already when she started her sermon. When it came time to pray, I broke down to God because I knew there was nobody else who could give me the answers to my questions. As I was laying there asking God to give me answers and praying for forgiveness for whatever I have done to make Him not want me, I was feeling as if I was alone.
But then, I felt as if someone was hugging me. I looked up and I didn’t see no one. But I still felt as if someone was sitting right beside me, hugging me. I didn’t feel alone anymore.
God didn’t speak with words to me that night.
He spoke with a hug to let me know I’m not facing this alone; I don’t have to worry about a thing; just to put my pain and sadness in His hands and let him take care of everything.