[guestpost]Kim Wesson thought the life she had would be the life she would always have, but God had other plans. He turned her addiction into a beautiful example of His grace.[/guestpost]
Most of my life has been filled with depression, drinking, and bad choices.
I lost everything I ever loved and that led to further depression, drinking, and bad choices. I can remember wanting to die just so I wouldn’t have to hurt anymore. I don’t remember how many times I have been arrested, but suffice to say it has been many. More than 20 at least.
On December 27, 2015, I reluctantly went to the Taylor House in Mount Vernon, AL. It ended up being the best decision I ever made. I learned so many things about a better way of life. I learned the difference between joy and happiness. I learned that happiness is something that comes and goes, but true joy from the Lord can be experienced even on the bad days. I learned that to live this joy-filled life that I needed to turn my life over to the Lord. To have a relationship with the Lord, I have to be obedient and to be obedient I have to listen to what God tells me to do instead of following my feelings. Then I learned that everything I needed to follow Jesus was all there in God’s word. When I have a bad day, I have to put my trust in God. I have to remember that He is in control and have faith that He knows what is best for my life.
Today I think back on that December day and shiver because I know how close I came to not going to the Taylor House. I just picked up my 7 month chip at Celebrate Recovery last week. I am in awe of how much my life has changed. My life has so much meaning today. I still have bad days, but during those bad times, I cling to my faith and trust in my Savior and even in the midst of those bad times I have hope.
I know there is only one direction for me to go from here and that is up.
[shareable cite=”Kim Wesson”]I still have bad days, but during those bad times, I cling to my faith and trust in my Savior and even on the bad days I have hope.[/shareable]
Remember ye not the former things, neither consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; Shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert. — Isaiah 43:18-19